I started calling you ‘Rabbi’ since the day I internalized the true essence of ‘ Rabbuka ‘

‘Rabbi’ is an occean of impenetrable depth with eminent and overflowing waves gushing onto me far and wide , the more I spurt deeper the more depth is yet to be discovered , the more I realise it’s beauty the more I fall for you .Everytime I call you ‘Rabbi ‘ I feel myself secured in an unyielding fort with big walls far Extending miles and miles above , I feel myself being nurtured in your love .Everytime I call you ‘ Rabbi ‘ I feel as if you are my only possession worthwhile and that sense of you being mine sets me free from all the shackles of this temporary world .I know I can pile up my worries to you , unmasking the deep entrenched secrets of my heart you are not going to say once ‘ I am tired of you Shafaq ‘ No No I can come to you anytime only to find you waiting for me .I can ask you to handle me when I am crying .I can cry me heart out to you Only to find you all ears , All hearing , All caring , All seeing .I close my eyes and imagine where were you my whole life !What if I can’t see you ? What if I can’t hear you talking , what if you are skies above ,but I can sense you everywhere everytime . While blowing water bubbles in the terrace , while eating my favourite pasta , while hiding myself from a daunting cat , while taking in the heavenly scents of the roses in my garden , while looking at the beautiful rain , while doing the dishes ,that silent walk , those silent tears , that silently looking to you on skies , while seeing the birds , while doing everything , you were there everytime everywhere !!!If I am on my knees in a black and grey storm , watching it rattling through the panes of windows of my life and it goes heavier and heavier I will still believe to you to be my only shelter my only handhold !! You will take me under your shade passively and soothingly.I know you won’t let me fall and if you do , you will either give me the wings to fly or catch me in your arms . If you take my eyes away today it’s because you want me to see only you on that day , if I lose my hearing its because you want me to prepare to listen your words on that day .If you take my speech away , its because you want me to talk to only you and you.If you take anyone away it’s because you want me to enjoy intimacy with you I want to hear once ‘ I love you too ”I miss you too ”I was yearning to meet you too ‘I want you be the one to welcome me the moment I die .What will I do then ? What will I say to you when I will first see You ? I will just cry .I won’t say anything .I will let you handle me .When my loved one was laying dead infront of me 3 months ago I said to you ‘ Rabbi If you decide to take everything away from me , my parents , my siblings , my luxuries , my everything just don’t include one thing in them , just don’t include yourself in them .I can live without anyone except you , I will die that day when I am unable to feel you nearby ‘ I don’t know how many lifetimes are hindering between you and me I just know one thing .I have to wait patiently .I have to wait..Time to meet Him is soon..Time to meet him is here..

Author: Shafaq Javed

“Do I even matter?”
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“Does this world need me?”
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“Is my existence of some worth?”
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“I feel I am not as important and significant as others? ”
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“Thinking these things makes my heart sink. Will I ever get an answer to these questions? I don’t want to feel this way, don’t want to think this way. I want my heart to be lifted. How will that happen and will it ever?”

Yes. Your heart can be at solace. Yes, you are of worth. Yes, you do matter and you matter to the most important being of this entire Universe : ALLAH subhanahu wa ta’ala.

الرحمن. علم القرآن. خلق الإنسان. علمه البيان…..
فبأي الاء ربكما تكذبان.

How can you think you are worthless when Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala considered you worthy of being created. The very fact of your coming into existance, coming into being is in and of itself should stir in your heart the realization that what ALLAH ta’ala created can’t be Valueless and imperfect !

He brought you into existence. He gave you that privilege to be one of the creation, one of the living beings, one of the human beings AND most importantly one of the MUSLIMS.

He has been nurturing you, providing you, taking care of you, planning for you, blessing you, watching over you, protecting you, helping you, solacing you, feeding you, clothing you, loving you, blessing youwith people in this life who love you n take care of you. How can you then think you’re worthless?

You CAN’T be.
Remember the love your parents have for you? The care your siblings show you ? The concern your friends have for you? The good will feelings other human beings have for you? Who instilled those feelings in their hearts?
ALLAH.

Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala did. Only He is the Turner of hearts. He made those hearts love you, have affection for you. How can you then think you’re worthless.

You can’t be that my dear. You can’t be. Even if you want to, you can’t be.
You are His creation, under His sight and shade. He loves you. The Most Important Diety knows you, loves you, responds you.

Never ever think this way now.
He blessed your heart with faith, taught you His word, beautified your recitation of His word. All this, and then you feel you’re worthless. That feeling is self oppression, dear. Shun it.

الرحمن. علم القرآن. خلق الإنسان. علمه البيان…..
فبأي الاء ربكما تكذبان.

“Then which of the favors of YOUR LORD will you deny?“

Surah Rehmaan

Author: Afeerah Javed

I couldn’t make it to Kips that day perhaps on waking up late. I was preparing ECAT those days. There was no one at home, so I was completely chilling around, roaming here and there backing up the whole dozen of books aside, chewing on some gum. I opened up my laptop on a sudden whim.

This guy!!, He is so Cutteee !
He was a pretty decent, beautiful guy with some beard wearing a long cloak .
Dudddee!!! I just found an islamic version of Chace Crawford Mannnnn!!!
I couldn’t take my eyes off him .
It was a youtube video with some islamic thumbnail I didn’t quite bother to notice.

Whatever it is, i need to check him further. If the orator could turn out to be this ravishing, We, the girls, all of us, will turn to Islam one day…LOL
He was as if the angels speaking, I couldn’t bring myself to, once he started!! Haven’t seen like him in ages!!..

Moments and moments of seeing him , I started getting haya vibes

“Girl Girl !! Gonna zone out for some buck that might lead them to think how dopily you fell for some random religious guy who was no fun, just because he was pretty?? Ohh come onnnnnn ! Get A Life!!”

No! This guy !! He has something unusual. He is looking at me..

Whattt ??? What’s bringing this on?

I feel that..

Have you gone crazy ?
I looked at myself head to toe, I was wearing jeans and the shortest grey top I have had at that time with almost no sleeves. I looked back and forth in search of some cloth to cover myself up. I found one, covered my sleeves and lowered my gaze..

Noah Noah. There is something here !! There is something!!
He kept on and on
I covered my shoulders
I covered my head then
I hid my hair
I distanced myself from the laptop
I stood up

You know what ?? Close your laptop and go easy on yourself..

What’s wrong with you Shafaq ? Just blow off your steam lady !! Clearly he was saying:

Verily! Allah Almighty stretches out His hand by night to accept the repentance of those who sin by day and stretches out his hand by day to accept the repentance of those who sin by night, until the sun rises from the west.

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Like seriously ??
He ?? You mean Allah ?
Creator of Heavens and the Earth, skies and stars , galaxies and black holes ? He stretches His hands ? He ? For me ?? Everyday ? Every night ??
Allahhhhh
On my book , some distance ahead , my calculator was laying quiet .
I rushed to it..

How old are you ?? .. 17…

How many months above ?
What the heck are you upto ??

Counttttt !!

4…
I was shivering. I was scared. I was blue. Converted all my age into days and then multiplied it with 2 .
12,650, it said.

You called me 12,650 times by stretching your arms to me and never did I once respond you back.
I wasn’t able to bear those moments !!
I went to my wardrobe, stumbling and falling , a whole mess of inappropriate shirts, jeans ,tights, everything!! I searched and searched.
I found a shirt, a longest shirt all in black, only one shirt with some decent full sleeves, black tights and a deep black stole. That was all I could find, He might like this dress.
I changed my outfit..
Trembling slowly, I went to another room. I was cold feet, I was frozen !!
My legs were not carrying me any further so I fell, I fell on my knees
I burst into tears.

All I could say was ‘ I’m sorry ‘
Hours after hours I cried. I felt as if I have put my head in His lap and He is right here.

He wasn’t mad at me. He wasn’t complaining. He didn’t reprimand nor He was sarcastic. He didn’t ask even once, where was I? He was happy, more than me .
I felt lighter .
My grandmother then came over. She said:

Ye abaya pehna hua hai ? kahan se liya apne ?

Nai ammi ! Merey pas abaya nai hai .
I cried so bad !!
Mere pas kuch b nai hai jo usey pasand hai !!

Author: Shafaq Javed

I am silently watching those rivers with their high and low tides , waves bumping and roaring tirelessly, appears to the world unquiet  but to me it is calm !!

the blistering voices in the market places , the shrilling and distressing traffic noises , the hustle in the shopping centers , those billions of feet walking tirelessly from dawn to dusk , those unceasing mirth in marriage halls and muffled cries in graveyards ,the rising of the sun opening so many stories , heartbreaks and cheerfulness , appears to the world unquiet but to me it is calm!!

I am silently watching the birds chirping, leaving their nests in the morning and returning back in the evening, fluttering and surging on the skies. Their, sometimes unsubdued voices but mesmerizing, voices appears to the world unquiet, but to me, it is calm !!

In some far stretched woods, carrying millions of ecosystems, those roaring of the wildest animals to the murmuring of the gentle ones, those stagant and poisonous ponds in an abandoned land to the overflowing rivers in the most inhabited places. Those black ants scampering on the black stone in the darkest night to the blasting airplanes rupturing the most unperturbed waves in the air appears to the world unquiet but to me, it is calm !!

I am watching silently those hideous shrubs to the the most fascinating gardens, the fireworks on the skies narrating someone’s success stories to the silent cries of an old man in some obscure cottage in least known place, those tireless rising and setting of sun, people leaving the world in an eye blink to the babies being welcomed with a blend of joyous laughters and tears, closing of the eyes of the deceased to opening of the eyes of infants, the mothers crying on their miscarraiges to the mothers overflowing with joy on arrival of triplets, from the joys of the luckiest to the shrieks of the ill-fated appears to the world unquiet but to me it is calm !!

It is calm, Serene, Tranquil…

It seems as if He has given everything an appointed time, and everything is waiting to meet Him submissively!

It appears calm to me !!

Everything is managed by ‘ Al Rehman ‘ it is calm to me. Everything is nourished by ‘ Al Rehman’ it is calm to me. Everything is under His extensive love and care, it is calm to me!!

I am scared of the day when it won’t be !! When He will settle everything..

When hell will be decided so do the heavens..

When the wretched will be made to burn and praiseworthy will be made to rest near Him !!

It won’t be calm then !!

Time to meet Him is near !!

Author: Shafaq Javed

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